I’m old enough now to put the things I want aside for things I need. It was a hard-earned lesson though. Most of my life I’ve been a bit of a people pleaser. I hate letting people down, but I always fear that’s exactly what I’ll do without meaning to hurt anyone. I’m much better these days because there are some things in life you can’t apologize for. Simply because there are some things we can’t help.
I don’t want to go into too many details, mostly because this isn’t really my story to share. Suffice to say, my spouse had a major, amazing opportunity that was changing the tides of our future in an exciting way. Then, out of nowhere a couple of weeks ago, that opportunity was taken away. So we’ve been re-prioritizing ever since.
Neither of us is giving up by any means. Instead of letting the news keep him down, I’m so proud to say he’s been working just as hard to become better and apply again. But it has also put a major shift on my #writinglife trajectory for 2020.
When I thought things would significantly change soon, I had big plans, as most of you know. I had Blackbriar Cove, my sequel to Silver Hollow finally releasing in May. I also had the sequel to my serialized urban fantasy series, Devil Red coming in September. But let me tell you something about this business that is sad but true if you want to stay in the game. It takes money to make money. Right now, I can maintain the books I already have out there, but I can’t afford to push any more this year. I’m so sorry to everyone who pre-ordered, but I had to take those down today on Amazon. To those who pre-ordered Blackbriar Cove outside Amazon, your pre-order will still be good (yay, Smashwords!)
Like I said before, I hate letting my readers down. I really was excited about sharing and delivering more awesome stories this year. But family comes first, and right now I’m not just a mom, but the main breadwinner. So I’m going to be focusing on that for 2020. Thank y’all so much for all your support and understanding!
What I can promise, is that I will continue writing. I write every day, and if all goes well this next year, I hope to come back full force for y’all in 2021! I will continue to blog here, and share teasers when I can (without too many spoilers 😉 I’ll also continue sharing reviews and fantastic new reads with y’all through Lone Star and Prism Book Tours, so I hope y’all will hang with me and stay tuned!
To those of you going through similar struggles in life, I hope you take heart with me this year. Don’t give up. Don’t stop writing and don’t let life keep you from creating. We can do this together, one day at a time 🙂