Wherever you're at today, I hope and pray you are also seizing your good moments, and treading through the bad. If times have or continue to be tough, know there's always good coming ahead. Sometimes we have to reach for it, but sometimes good finds us.
I'll be honest. It's been so long since I've felt in enough of the right mental space to write (be it blogging or storytelling) that I scarcely know where to begin.
It's been a while since I wrote about writing. Probably because I've had something of a love/hate relationship with my passion for the past year. The older I get, the harder it becomes to simply throw myself into a story the way I did pre-kid and pre-adulting. I can no longer blindly write into the night. If I want to get anything accomplished in any of my current projects, it needs to become habit.
I normally shy away from posting things online that I consider "too personal." But at the same time, I also believe in sharing some of life's difficulties with you. Because I know I'm not the only one who goes through things like this, and maybe hearing my voice will help those of you who have or are going through similar situations as well.
After a year’s hiatus, I came back to publishing to a whole new world. Many of the authors I had followed were no longer publishing. The ones still around either rocketed to stardom or cut comfortable corners into their perspective niches. Many of the methods I had utilized at the start of my career were null and void, I just wasn’t aware until it was too late.
About a month before watching Cathy Hay's video, I pulled out my high school journals "for research." I've had an idea for a YA novel/novella series for some time, but I wanted to step back into the shoes of Fifteen. Boy, did my journals deliver.
It's hard writing into the void sometimes. With traditional and original fiction, you often write something that people may or not read. Then they may or may not leave a review. If they bother leaving a review (this is not counting book bloggers btw) that's either because they loved your story, or they hated it. The average G.I. Jane doesn't review unless your story moved them to a strong feeling.
When you write, you tend to spend a lot of time in your head, and it’s easy to become discouraged and disheartened. It’s even easier to fall into a pit that doesn’t seem to have a way out.
One thing I hope you take away from my meanderings, is to enjoy your life. Don't beat yourself up for missing the occasional deadline or falling out of habits. Sometimes, we structure our lives too much, so much that we forget how to be part of the world outside our screens. I hope you find ways to surround yourself with beauty this week. I hope you are inspired 🙂
Now that I'm in my 30's, I've realized how important it is to cut out time for myself. I used to guilt myself over this as a new mom, but after crashing and burning because I wasn't taking care of myself, I've learned from past mistakes. No matter how much you love your kids, your spouse, or your job, you can't neglect yourself.